As promised, here's that long overdue backlog post. Just cause I feel so free at the moment. Free from work and school load, at least.

Early this month, I got to be part of a high-end production for our Event-Advertising Class under the brilliant Sir Kevin Piamonte. It was for the Sarabia Jewelry Brand Launching, held last December 10 at the Museo Iloilo in the presence of some big time personalities. I don't feel like this is a time for some narrative, so instead I give you photos, taken by my good friend and classmate for this class, THE Diody Fadullan, with some half-baked captions by my lazy self.

Expensive. The event was practically worth millions. A piece cost hundreds of thousands (at least). Imagine how tight security had to be. At least 40 securities were deployed to man the event.

 

Big Time. Gina Sarabia, Amor Maclang, David Celdran. Nuff said.

The production was pretty simple. It began with black-robed monks lighting up medieval candelabras over the runway, to the beat of some mysterious hymn played by a live band. I saw it bring people goosebumps. It was a brainchild of our brilliant professor of course. A few minutes later, the fashion show began, David Celdran hosting in-between collections. The pieces were inspired by different Iloilo Churches; this explains the whole medieval gregorian peg feels. The models gracefully strut their way to again, some sort of gregorian tune in a slow-paced, soft-faced walk. Then cocktails followed, a "big band" played for it, some sales talk commenced but  we had to bail before that, since our job there was basically done. Oh and yes, that's Froilene in the middle, our dear friend and classmate! So beautiful right.

Well that's us during cocktails, cocktailing our way to free buffet. And that's our awesome professor right there. Best. Class. Ever.

Enthralling, would be the right word. Can I just say, enlisting in this class will forever be one of the best decisions I have ever made in my whole student life. This is the same class that brought me to SM Little Stars, Korean Festival Fashion Show, and the recent SM City Christmas Opening. We certainly couldn't wait for that Petron Triathlon gig next year! Because of this experience I'm certainly looking into an Events career in the future. Yikes, that sounds near omg three months til graduation *dies.

Let's just say, I am in that period of my life. Where a lot of things are changing. A shift in perspective maybe. But at this point I'd like to call it a regeneration, a spiritual renewal of some sort.

Because 2013 has been difficult. We had troubles at home, I was being torturedly shriveled by my own insecurities and doubts, my self-esteem wasn't at its best, and basically home wasn't a place I wanted to be at anymore. There have just been a lot, and it was difficult, seeing everything I ever believed in being torn apart into pieces. What made it even worse was the fact that I couldn't tell anybody about it. Not because nobody was willing to listen, and not because I never wanted to tell them. It's just that.. it's how I've always been. I don't tell people my heartbreaks, my weaknesses, my doubts. Perhaps because I find it easier that way. Because then I wouldn't have to tell people about anything, I wouldn't owe them any story, or any explanation for the quiet tears I shed at night. I know they know I cry... a lot. But they don't ask, maybe because they know I don't want them to. And I like that. I like that they don't ask ― most of the time, at least.

With all these I thought, maybe this was a time where my faith was being tested. There were times when, everything just seemed like a big fat blur. I didn't know what to do, or where to go, or just how to keep living. And then I remember I have Him. He would nonchalantly breeze in in front of me in one of my dazes, as if reminding me He's always there, and I just needed to look. His works are indeed mysterious, like how He brings someone into your life when you need it the most, that being, him, my boyfriend. But he is more than just a need. I like to look at him, my boyfriend, as a present from Him. He has been a leap of faith for me this year. I don't know how, or where, or when, but I realized how everything just fell into place when he came. One morning I woke up and said to myself, I am never going to put this present into waste. For the first time in my life, I wanted to keep something, someone, for myself. And I thought this was a good thing, considering how much I've lost in my life. Suddenly all the loss are blurred out by this gain. It felt good.

And I guess that's just really what it takes to be okay. You just have to feel good. No matter how painful, regretful, embarrassing and ill-fated the situation you are in, you just have to suck it up and feel good. It will be difficult, yes. And it's okay to be sad, but not sullen, and not for a long time. You have to feel good as soon as possible. Think of the things you have rather succumb into the things you don't have. Focus on the gain, rather than focusing on the loss. It sounds cliche, but it always, always worked for me.

I know it's not like me to post a personal rambling here. I just felt like this is one of those quiet moments, where I have to revisit all the good thoughts. Plus, the fact that I recently got hold of a very important secret. It's one of the reasons I'm actually blogging right now. A few days ago I got in a fight with my boyfriend. The reason being, the usual me, so negative and torturously damaging, throwing things at his face (figuratively, of course) without even giving a logical explanation. After about two days we made up. And he told me to look for the film "The Secret" and watch it. He's actually been telling me about it for weeks now, but my response would always go like "Okay but I want to watch it with you" (when really, I was just too lazy to download an hour and a half film online). Until one day when I think he really felt the need for me to watch it, so he insisted. So I did, good thing our dormitory internet was cooperating that time. And it was totally worth my time. And is totally worth sharing in any way possible. So here.



The secret worked on me hours after knowing about it. I lost my 8GB miniature canon camera flashdrive a week ago. I was practically depressed the whole time. I kept on hating myself for losing it, because it was a gift from my father and it was just about a month old. One freaking month, that's all it took me to lose such an important thing, who wouldn't get depressed? So after watching the film, I thought maybe I should use the secret and see what happens. Guess what, the next day my classmate tells me someone found my flashdrive near the canteen. What. a. miracle. Right? These are just the little things. Imagine all the other things that can happen if I continue using the secret. So yes, I am considering this as a part of my whole regeneration process. Please do watch. All it would really take, is to believe.

Anyway, holidays are coming. I want to go home and spend it without any hate, or bad feelings, so spend it with joy I shall. I hope you guys spend it well with your folks too. Happy Christmas!

Oh and, backlog posts are coming! That of my previous events, experiences, hangouts and many more!

I love you

I love you and I will tell you everyday

I love you when the sun rises,

I will love you when it sets

I love you when our days are good,

I will love you when they’re bad

I love you for what we have,

I will love you for what we don’t

I love you like I love the rain,

When you’re there, and when you’re not

Because I love you in your presence

And I will love you even in absence

I love you

I love you and I will tell you everyday